I don't know ...

... why I miss Him so much, but I do.
AD, I miss you.

I'm not sure I'll ever be able to get some sort of closure. Probably not. And I have no idea how these wounds are ever supposed to heal without that.

I still can't make sense of what happened. And what's worse of all, I miss Him. I really do. Not because I'm lacking people in my life. I just miss Him. And I wish I had a way to talk to Him. Just once.