Spiraling

I' really, really bad again.

Watching Netflix. All I can think is "damn, that's a nice body" or "love those hip bones" or "if I stop eating now, by the end of the year I might look like that".

Big into self harming behavior. Trying not to let it out on my tattoo. That'd be damage I can't ever make up again.

Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck.