This moment ...

... when you're out with friends and you just want to have a good time. But you can't stand the body you're trapped in. You want to take a knife and cut yourself out of this shell that's not you. And you wish you could just forget about it, but there's just not enough booze to keep those thoughts from entering. And you go to the restroom and hide the tears and rock back and forth and wish this wasn't you and you weren't stuck with this.